Vortex A Realm Of Darkness

Wow this friggin week went fast. First we are having pizza in the conference room and then I am drinking bloody mary's at the bar.
I wonder if I could order ahead and the bartender (sandy from Jefferson's) would have my 2 drinks ready. Or maybe I could fax my order in. ( will that be debit or credit) I can hear her saying. Anyhow the pizza was cut pie sliced!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one piece was the size of my arm. Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Well somehow we managed, cause we all love pizza and we all have worked together now for about 8 years so pizza cheese and sauce dripping down our chins was nothing new.

But this week went fast. It really did, between 10000000000 phone calls and 8000000000000000000 acknowledgements, I managed to get everything ordered. Now I have to type it all up

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Maybe I will retire. Yeah in my dreams. If there is anyone out there that wants a wife, I will retire and cook for you, I am really a good cook
you should taste my Chicken Vesuvio...........................................

Thanks for listening.


J

Dreams

I am going to start to journal my dreams; I find them so fascinating. If you put together your dream symbols you can usually figure out what your subconscious is trying to tell you.

Last night I dreamt of an alligator and an empty house. The house was one that one of my best friends had just moved out of. So of course I consulted the “Dream Dictionary” to try to get an idea of what my brain was trying to tell me.

Actually, I dreamt two nights in a row of someone significant moving or leaving, I will look closely to this point.

Definition: Seeing a house in your dream represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity.
I was also crying very hard when I learned that my cousins were selling their beautiful Victorian home in Marshal Michigan and moving away from me. (This did happen, but 10 years ago)

Definition: Dreaming that you are moving away means your desire or need for change. It may also mean an end to a situation or relationship and your are moving on. Alternatively, it indicates your determination and issues regarding dependence/independence.



Definition: Dreaming that you are lost suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life. Alternatively, you may be trying to adjust and get accustomed to a new situation in which the rules and conditions are ever changing. Dreaming that someone else is lost, represents unresolved issues or feelings regarding the person that is lost. Consider also what aspect of that person you may have lost within your own self. Perhaps you need to recapture and re-acknowledge those aspects.



Definition: Dreaming that you are crying means a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.


Definition: If you see an alligator in your dreams it means that you should be expecting some trouble: treachery, deceit and danger. When you dream that you tamed an alligator, it shows that you have acquired great influence and lots of power. Some cultures give the figure of the alligator some healing power.Well this alligator was in a huge fish tank and I knew he was too big for it. So I watched him climb out of the tank and hit the floor. I closed the door and locked it.


Basically I think it means I am mourning the loss of myself because I have given up on a situation in my life and I need to move on or forward. I am insecure about moving forward, I have lost my direction. But I really need to move forward.

Insights into the world around us.

Yeah right,
like I have any insights into anything
except stir frying oriental food.
I have been struggling 42 years
with my existence on this earthly realm.
I am no closer to finding out the answers
as I am of ending world poverty.

I speak mostly through poetry
or more correctly Prose,
cause my words to not rhyme,
I find it tiresome
to always try to find just the right word,
when Prose gives you the freedom
to just let it roll off your pen.


Tell Me

How will I ever know?
if the choice I made was right?
Who will tell me
if I did the right thing?

I had no support
in making this decision.
I was all alone,
held captive
by invisible chains
made of steel.
Not wrapped around my heart,
but around my mind and body.




There are certain times when the creativity flows
More than others, usually when I am under stress.
So when I get unusually wordy you will know.

Sometimes I am on top of the world
Flying on eagle’s wings.
Eagle’s Wings




Golden sun,
Shine on my upturned face.

West wind,
Blow the tears from my cheeks
and softly ruffle my hair.

Little stars,
Twinkle and smile at me
from the midnight sky.

Light golden glow of the moon,
Guide my path,
so I can find my way.

Oceans breeze,
Cool me, when things get to heated,

Tiny wild flowers,
in the field, calm me with your light scent.

Snow capped mountains,
Give me the strength to carry on.

Eagle's wings,
Give me speed.



And sometimes I am on the edge of a precipice
Waiting to dive off.

The last Thread

Her shrouded form, is hidden from view.
Behind the ancient oak tree,
With it’s gnarled fingers, reaching into the night.

The dark hood masks
her beautiful auburn hair , and her tear stained face.
Ethereal clouds obscure the radiance
of tonight’s moon. As if refusing to witness
this event, on this hallowed eve.

The fine silver thread symbolizing
the last bit of hope for her future,
dangles from her trembling fingers.

The evening breeze plays with her hair,
as she removes the woolen hood,
Hearing the waves Confidently crashing against the rocks,
as she walks to the edge, gives her courage.

The clouds relinquish the moon’s prophecy.
As she holds her delicate hand up for the offering.

Sobbing quietly as she releases
the last of the fine silver thread.
It catches upon the wind’s current
and is carried over the sharp cliffs
into the sea forever.


Someday I will find all the answers to my questions.
But will it be too late to act upon them.
Or is it a good thing that I can’t.

Take the ride with me!

Jeanne

Subconscious

Subconscious


In the twilight of darkness,
Somewhere between
dreams and reality
The conscious mind is executing.

What was deeply embedded
in your subconscious now surfaces,
mixing with the moon’s iridescence
and the lonely call of the ocean.

Your heart perceives security
in this secret realm
of tranquility and slumber
To thoroughly express
the soul it possesses.

What was too painful by day
Can be revealed by night.
Only the scrambled images
and enigmas of the subliminal
can the emotions be realized

The deep scar from love not fulfilled
cries out in the illumination
with the moon and stars as witness

Champagne

Champagne

I don’t know why
I was hiding from you.

The champagne was absolutely delicious
that we drank from the tall blue crystal bottles on the table.

Its sweetness
in contrast
to the horrific death scene
before us.

As the scythe
sliced off your head ,
I saw it fall to the floor
below the kitchen sink.

Your golden curls
Now sticky
with wet blood.

But you weren’t
a beautiful blonde
with cascading
shimmering curls.

You were an old
sinister evil man
with red eyes
and an wicked plan
for mankind.

I think I stopped you

Your champagne
was delicious

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Kevin

Kevin cooked us dinner tonight. He couldn't eat any of it but he wanted to cook for us all. He made lemone chicken on a bed of garlic vermacelli, with garlic bread. We had a wonderful chardonnay to accompany the meal. For dessert, Kevin made a delicious peach crisp drizzled with a rum sauce. I told him in a restaurant the meal would be over $75.00 a couple. He smiled and said. "I will send you a bill.

It was a magical night. Kevin just wanted to give some of the love back. And cooking was his way to do it.

You see Kevin has cancer of the throat. They say its from smoking. He has lost 30 pounds because of course he can't eat. And now they want to put three tubes in him. One central for the Chemo, one for breathing cause of course once the poison goes in his throat will swell. And one feeding tube. I told Kevin that "This is just another hurdle in life."

Kevin said "Its only a speed bump." God bless you Kevin. WE ALL LOVE YOU.



You said "Only the good die young."

Well Kevin is not good,

he is rotten to the core

so you can't take him.

You don't want him.

We still want his wit and sarcasm

here on earth with us.

You don't really need him yet!

So leave him here with

us a little while longer.

I promise he won't be any trouble.

Let him stay Please????????????

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Liable

With the moon’s
iridescence
comes the sinister
urgings
once again.

This continuous
cycle
beats endlessly
on my torn
and battered
self esteem.

Will I be held
liable
for the darkness
that emanates
from my
black heart.

Or am I exempt
from the scars
I inflict
On the unknown
victims
of my slow
decent
into the fires
of hell.

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Emanate

I long
for the taste
of this evil.

When ever the sliver
is an orb
high in the evening sky.

Even the fog
can not hide
the cycle of sin
from me.

It’s a primeval urge
that courses through my
Already heated veins.

Causing my pulse
to spike
And my senses
to become acute.

My search begins
for an easy to find
Corruptible victim.

They are drawn
to the evil scent
I emanate.

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Malignant


Malignant

The poison has spread
Sliding downward
in a spiraling dance of death.

It is past
the point
of no return.

Time is of the essence
for you now

More poison is scheduled
To capture the venom
already in the nodes.

2 wrongs
won’t make it right,
will it?

No, I know it won’t
tho we shall try our best
to fix the leaks
in your reactor.

But a landing on mars
would be easier
and less costly.

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Run

Why are you
so corruptible?

So easily led
down my female path
toward Your destruction.

At least
try to fight
the evil seduction
of your soul.

It’s the taste
of the forbidden fruit
it’s so juicy
It runs down
your masculine lips.

That is your undoing.

You have acquired an appetite
For the exotic taste
of my fruit.

Run
while you still can.

Forsythia

Forsythia


Cadmium yellow blossoms surround
my young realm
as tall as my childhood eyes could see.
their sweet fragrance perfuming
my little kingdom
should I have stayed
in the small confined safe realm?

I wish I could have,
but all too soon
I was able to see over the tops
of my favorite bloom
and wonder at the world outside
with its hustle and bustle.

I still find childish delight
in the buttercup blooms,
but they are not surrounding me,
and holding me safe anymore in my realm.

Thoughts

Thoughts

As I sit gazing into
the bright crimson, and tangerine,
of the flames.
I feel its warmth its strength.

Bordered by the blue gray assorted stones,
stolen from the murky waters edge.
To encircle the fire and hold it bound.

I am carried back through time
on the eagle’s wings to a place,
I do not know,
but I feel as if I have come home.

The faces, the smiles,
the sights are all familiar,
as well as the smells
of the fresh kill
slowly roasting on the spit.

It’s tangy juices,
Provoking the fire to life.
The color of the leaves,
the textures of the fabrics
are not new to me at all.
When was I here?

What Is?

I do not know What Is.

Do you know What is?

Does anyone know What Really is?

We need to know What Really is!!